Kiara's World

Wow. I haven't been on livejournal in almost a year. Seems to have lost its appeal after it started so much drama in the 12th grade. LoL. Feels weird knowing that I am out of high school and on my own. I'm living it up right now. Got my math midterm back today and I got a 92 so I'm ecstatic at this point. My roommate is better. We've had no problems since I was sexiled. Never again will anything like that happen to me. Next time, he's sleeping in someone else's room. I refuse to give up my bed for almost a week for any other stranger.

My mommy and I have gotten closer since I've been away at school. She insists that I talk to her every night although all the books say that we should only talk once a week. LoL. Gotta love her...

I went through a few rough patches at the beginning of college, but I think that everything has smoothed out now. I am comfortable with myself and although I'm in a new environment, I feel like I'm able to cope and wild out...but still do what I need to do when worse comes to worse. In the first weeks of school, people called me to go out and I jumped. Now, if my work is not done or I'm tired, they can forget about me going anywhere. This is exactly why I'm pulling in As and they're pulling in Cs and Ds. It took me a bit to get a hang of things...but my education is not going to be slighted for anything. I don't care who wants me to go out. Work comes first!!!

Overall, LIFE IS GOOD!!! I'm doing what I need to do, and I hope everyone else is too. No smoking, drinking, or sex until you are old enough...and by old enough, I mean atleast 22.

I'm black!!!

I'm proud!!!

I'm satisfied with my life!!!

Things don't always go my way but in the end it all works out for the best...just sitting here thinking about how my father's situation should have messed up my life, but it in fact made me a better person. I learned how to control my emotions. How to cope with things on the inside and not have anyone know that I was going through anything unless I really want them to know. I guess I was forced to gain some life qualities that it takes others many years to aquire. Interesting...

Anyways, Thanksgiving was blazin. I ate much. I talked to some people that I was not expecting to hear from. They put smiles on my face. I was happy. :DDD

Mad random things going through my mind right now. I'm just happy to be alive for some reason... I'm starting to appreciate the things that I have knowing that I have more than some and less than others. I'm on a good middle ground and I like where I'm at. Money, or the lack of it, does crazy things to people...

Blah, blah, blah...peace...

Enjoying my day off of school. Life is lovely right now! I'm so excited about everything right now. So far I have mailed in two complete college applications. Hopefully I will hear from them soon, although neither of those are my first choice. Those are just my safeties.

I've been having mad fun outside of school lately. Me and Phil did break up but that's really when my fun started happening. I didn't talk to him for like a week then he IMed me mad randomly saying "what up." I was like "why are you talking to me? do you miss me or something?" When he said yeah it was on. I wasn't really ready to talk to him yet, but whatever. We're on good terms so that's good. I been spending mad time with my best friend lately. That is my sister for life...I love Stashia soo much!!! We always been cool but now I'm making a lot more time to spend with her. We been having mad fun everyday. :DDD

School is good. My mother has her meeting with Ms. Klugman tonight. I'm straight though because all my grades were on point except Chemistry because Ms. Stauffer messed up my A- and gave me a B+. I gotta get that one up. I been spending mad time by myself in school and whylin' out afterwards. Dee and Ashley have become my closest friends as far as school is concerned. Ashley is a confidante and she listens to all my problems before the day begins...Dee is just cool all around especially when I feel like bothering her late at night...

I guess what I'm trying to say is life is lovely. I'm not letting anything get to me anymore. I've just been mad chill in every situation. Not letting anything bother me to the point of frustration. Some people don't understand my new philosophy but whatever. I gotta do what's best for me...

Until next time, peace out....:D

I feel like I haven't written in forever so here it goes.

Everybody basically knows about all the stuff that went down with me and Phil. It's cool now though so whatever. We talked, and something that trivial is definitely NOT gonna mess up our relationship. I love him too much for that. It's funny though because as soon as I really got mad at him, who calls me but Dave? He just came out of nowhere but it was blazin to hear his voice. I got mad love for Dave that I can't even describe. He has gotten alot more caring since our relationship has been over and I love him for that. That is still my baby no matter what.

Drama everywhere. I feel like a Moesha episode that I just watched. She was walking with her friends and then she just started floating away from them. I feel just like that. It seems as if I'm floating away from all of my friends. I feel like I'm growing and leaving them behind. I've realized that I'm maturing at an enormous rate right now. I no longer have time for the petty nonsense that is going on around me. Although I am still crazy and act wild at times, I'm done with the person that I used to be. I still stand up for myself and do what I have to do, but I no longer do it in such an outlandish way. I'm now calm and collected. I realize my faults and weaknesses and I am doing my best to either get rid of them or hide them. Life is too short for the b.s.

Anyways, just thought that I would update on my life at the moment. Everything is good in my mind. Maybe it doesn't seem that way but whatever. I gotta live for me and nobody else and right now I think that I'm doing a pretty decent job at doing just that.

Life is good.

What up y'all? The summer is beautiful. Haven't talked to you guys in a while. Just wanted you to know that I'm still living. Working daily, getting that weekly check. Life is beautiful. And my sweetie makes every day better. I love him sooo much. Alright...enough on that. Just wanted you to know that I didn't fall off. I'm hitting Hopkins hard once September comes...feel me? Aight peace y'all.

Hi guys. I'm still alive. Life's good. I just finshed doing my SATs, they really weren't as bad as I thought they would be. It was just real long. My auntie just called and told me that she got me a dress. That means I really am going to prom...I guess? Still debating on who to go with. I think I might just give in and go with my boyfriend...why not? Everybody talking about bringing blankets to the beach with they nasty behinds. Y'all is disgusting. Alright I have nothing else to say. Just wanted to let you know that I am still here. I'm out.

1 more thing: I LOVE YOU DEE!! Stop being so down on yourself about everything.

Yeah so I decided that maybe I should update. Nothin's happening except that I missed the Notre Dame party tonight. Can somebody please tell me how that went? Hopefully I will be going to the mall wit Shamaree tomorrow, but my mother talking about she might bring my stepfather out because his birthday is Monday too so I don't know.

I will never bring my boyfriend back to Hopkins again. Everybody coming up to me talking about "Oh he is so rude, I heard he told Chisom that she acted like she bagged 50 Cent at the library." For all you gossiping people, that is not what he said and if you don't believe me, then ask Chisom herself. I hate when people speculate. If you want to know something then go to the source. Don't listen to that he-say, she-say bullshit.

Anyways, I'm done ranting, just had to get that off my chest. Whatever. Ok...bye

Hi everybody that knows livejournal still exists. I haven't written in a while because it's taken off of school computers and I don't have the time to write at home. Anyways, my bf will be at school on Thursday. He promised that he would try to behave so hopefully I will have a pleasant day. I can't wait to spend the whole day with him. He doesn't believe that I have as much work as I say I do so I guess I have to show him what I do all day. Quaya's leaving me alone for a whole week. I didn't even get to chill with her today because of the damned snow day. Not that I'm complaining. I'll be going on my college visits soon though, so hopefully I will get a full update on the colleges she's visiting. Oh, yeah. I got a new phone. I finally got a plan again, except this time it's even better because this is my own plan and I don't have to share minutes. I have to start my English paper now so I'm about to be up all night. Ok...bye

I feel like i need to update so here it goes. I'm tired becuase I've been up since 3:30 this morning. I had to write a paper for that stupid English class. I'm stressed because junior year is really working my nerves. And if you see me smiling, it because it's official. I'M IN LOVE. Nothing else matters anymore. Ok...bye

Hi...I'm still living...ok,bye

Sitting in the library bored..haven't updated in a while...sorry, but I got to much stuff to do to be trying to update everyday. Between school and TRYING to have a life, I am drained. Tiffany is mad at me. I'm not sure why. I told her sorry but she still acting funny so whatever. She ain't talkin to me or Quaya now. This chick is losing friends like whoa. But, off that subject, Brunswick is here havin a game. I'm not sure how their basketball team is so maybe I'll go watch the game before the lecture starts. I'm almost done with all my homework so i will be good once I finally get home. Then I'll have time to talk to my husband so he can keep me up like he did every other night this week. Ok...bye

I should be doing my spanish homework but I think I'm going to write. I did homework all weekend. Then I realized that my life consists of school, school work, church, and the little time that's left goes to my boyfriend. I got too much stuff to do. I'm always in church and even though it's usually fun, I wonder what I would do with that extra time if I didn't have to go. I probably would do more work. Anyways, I'm going to see Coach Carter on Saturday. I know it's goin to be live. I would go on Friday but there will be too many people there and I don't feel like the chaos. It'll still be mad people there Saturday too but it will be a little more calm so I'm straight with that. I was goin to SnoBall but I changed my mind. I got better things to do with my life than to sit at some corny ass Hopkins dance. I am going to the Hamden Hall game though because I think it might be interesting. Chris was on the bus this morning talking about their theme music and all this other stuff so I'm going to go just so I can laugh at the people on the court. It's some cute boys in Hamden Hall too so I might have to look at some future prospects. You know, keep my game tight so that I don't forget how to bag niggas. I'm deciding whether or not I should bring my boyfriend to the game because he might cramp my style a little if I'm looking at other people. Ok...gtg

Ok I'm back 4real. Today is going to be hell. It's my mother's birthday and I was supposed to stay home, but at the last minute, she decided that she wanted to spend the day with her husband. That is not fair. It's okay though because tommorow we're going shopping in New York and I'm sure I will forgive her. I didn't even get her a birthday present yet. How do you shop for somebody that has everything? It's impossible. I'm just going to let her pick out something in New York and buy it for her. That seems like the easiest way to do it. Alright, I'm actually going to do my work now. ttyl

I'm kinda bored right now. I should be doing work but everybody's touching entries threw me for a loop. Why are you guys so down on yourselves? Stop thinking about what everybody else thinks and just DO YOU!!!! Everybody else opinions are not going to count in the long run. You have to live with yourself, they can leave and not think about it no more.

This concludes your session with Dr. Kiara. lol

Okay, you can tell I'm bored if I'm writing two days in a row. Yesterday was a mixture of things. I realized that the new year starts in two days. Wow!! You see how time flies. Got to go.

What up everybody. I haven't wriiten in a while because I didn;t have any thing to say. Anyways, Christmas was fun. I got what I wanted (minus my phone, I got to wait until April now). I'm finally sixteen so now, in my eyes, I'm legal. I have yet to get my permit. I don't have time for that, I'll get it eventually. Have fun on y'all breaks. I'll be back with a vengeance next week. Damn, can you beleive break is almost over already? I really got to go so I can utilize the little bit of time I have left. Peace.

Just wanted to say hi. I been getting aggravated over stupid shit lately. I think it's just because I'm so ready to get the hell out of here. If I offended anybody, sorry. But if you get on my nerves I'm just going to say my piece and then say fuck it. Ok...bye

My physics teacher pissed me the fuck off this morning. Obviously if nobody gets what you're talking about, yoou shouldn't have a test the next day. Right? I didn't know that I called him a "dumb ass" that loud though. I hope he didn't hear me. That shit was funny as hell. Alright I gotta do my homework

I'm actually going to write today. My history term paper is over and I'm finally free. Although I got a english position paper due on Friday. I'm like you Tiffany. I now know the meaning of hell week. Teachers piling on mad shit for no reason.

My weekend was kind of retarded. I was on the phone from the time I stepped in the door until about 1 something Friday. Then when I woke up Saturday my mother was like get dressed because we're going Christmas shopping. I was out all day and when I finally came back in the house it was after 8. I was going to start term paper then but then I called Tiff. After I talked to her, mad people started calling me for no reason. Once I got off the phone I didn't feel like doing my paper anymore and I just brought my black ass to bed. Then yesterday I went to church. When I got home and I finally started typing my term paper, my father called me with some disturbing news. My grandfather is in a coma. And he said that he found out some other shit that had to do with me. While I was calming him down, trying to convince him that I am not pregnant, my baby called me. Then my mother started yelling at me about getting dressed for church. I was so stressed that I said I would just call him back. We was in church for mad long and when we got home it was after 11. I only had like half of my term paper done so I had to rush to try to finish it. I got to bed a little after 2. Then when I woke up this morning, my husband called me again. He was trying to make sure that I wasn't mad at him. I still had to finish my term paper though, so I had to cut that conversation short. Everything is done and now I have time to write.

ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?

Hi...I'm still living...Ok,bye